Just told J about my problem with food, and how I'm not okay with it.
He cried. I feel like a shit person, I didn't wanna tell him, but he kept asking what was wrong thinking I was upset with him.
I havent eaten all day, so I feel heaps out of it, plus you know how sometimes this disorder just puts you in a mood, and it's incredibly hard to communicate with anyone.
I can't stop crying, I don't want him to worry bout me, but I can't risk pushing him away again.
I feel so bad.