Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I got better, now I hate myself....

Its been 6 months since my last post.

So much has changed, I'm now in a committed relationship and living with my bf, J. Some of you may remember him from my previous posts.

I got better, my anti depressants I got put on for my anxiety, helped me to love who I am, I started to eat normally and everything was fine.

But now here I am at 56kg!!! The heaviest I have ever been in my life...if you asked me how it happened, I couldn't even tell you, it just kinda creeped up on me. Urgh!

So I'm coming back to the blog world for motivation. Not to starve myself but do this the healthy way so maybe I can stop this yo-yo-ing business.

Jack, my boyfriend is great, he understands and has started to drag my butt to the gym everyday, and cooks me amazing healthy meals, so I want to eat.
Im so incredibly lucky.

Im still a calorie counter, but I stick to my recommended cals, no more cutting back. I think I actually prefer this, I'm more motivated to exercise and do housework coz I'm not starving and tired all the time.

Anyway, I'll stop blabbering on. 

Its almost 2pm here and I have 900 cals left.

Today I had:

  • wholemeal crumpet with honey
  • 4 cruskits with vegimite
  • some sliced ham.
I plan on having an orange and a can of tuna later, plus whatever my lovely boyfriend cooks me.

And i will be doing 45 mins on the eliptical at the gym later.

Im actually excited =) 

Wish me luck, hope I drop this weight soon.



  1. Really good luck, you're doing amazing. <3
    I don't want to sound hypocritical but I have to ask that what do you mean with "drop this weight soon"? I mean how much have you planned to loose and what are the results you're seeking for? I bet you've already thought about this but it's just me getting worried that you won't ruin your progress with anxiety and unrealistic expectations.

    And you know that might be helpful for us too see what you eat. Or as for me I believe that it would be a great help and reminder ^^.

  2. welcome back love. hope you will post more

  3. I'm happy to hear you're in a good place, doing well & feeling better. Just remember to take care of yourself and your beautiful at any weight. Please dont fall back down the rabbit hole.

    ~ Harlow